I don't even know what to say.
go back to your family, you love them right, so go back lah since you're so unappreciated here. since you've done so much and have received so little in return, go back there to your precious 3rd world country and 4 children. GO. I know your dirty little secret, yes, all 5 of your dirty little secrets. mrs. dirty little secret and 4 little baby dirty little secrets. although one isn't such a baby, he's alr married. k so thats about it, hope you had fun sucking us dry and hope you've remitted enough cash to support your extended family BACK HOME.
LIAR. you dirty little liar i wonder how your conscience manages to keep PEOPLE a secret. HOW DO YOU DO IT WITHOUT FLINCHING. PRO. The only respect you're getting from me concerns how much of a great actor you are. I never knew. I never would have known if i didn't happen to see it. Now that I do, I can only hope that I'm not as effective a liar as you are.
When you have ammunition, its hard to tell when to use it. I want to drop the atomic bomb but people are saying nuclear war isn't the answer. Clearly it is, because I want him out of my life. I want my own family, where we're alright at the end of the day and where an entire COMMUNITY of people aren't hidden from you.
how much did you give them from her sweat, how much did they enjoy from her work, do they even know that you stole, yes STOLE comfort for them? You are an astonishing provider. Scavenger, you only do what's right for you. And them. Or do you love yourself more, still?
You think your anger scares me?I FEEL SO FEARLESS. I CAN THROW A PUNCH, WHAT'RE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT?
NOTHING. WHY? Because I can expose your lying and cheating. what is the reverse of filial piety? responsibility to your child? a car ride once a day. thanks.
Sometimes you say everything you wanted to, but it doesn't change anything. SO DON'T FEEL NO REGRET, NIGGA.
- Mood:dreamy. free?
- Music:Jack- Pixie Lott
i was just on the verge of crying in the sti BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M NOT FUCKING CRYING OVER STUPID SHIT LIKE YOU, CERTAIN SUBJECT I REGRET TAKING! Over the past 2 days, and after a certain consultation, i was suddenly passionate about this subject again. Then I had to go for that consultation. and everything came crumbling down on my sorry ass.
I know you have a right to be angry at me and not believe me and everything, but as of now, that will not matter to me.
I am not going to shed a single tear over you, i am going to take you on and I am going to own your sorry little academic ass. Okay? Bigger things(hur hur) have not killed me and you sure as hell are not going to. No matter how diffucult you are or how much time you demand, i am going to bite a stick or something to stop from screaming and stay in the fucking library until my fingers fucking freeze to the point of frostbite just to get you right.
You will not intimidate me, I REPEAT, YOU WILL NOT FUCKING INTIMIDATE ME. YOU'RE ONLY A H2. SO FUCK YOU.
"Rather than holding on to a broken dream, i'll hold on to love." wise words from Alicia Keys. Let go of the failed relationship, but keep the belief in love.
This is a little late, but...
To Phoebe, Pearlyn, Julia, Debbie and especially Naz and Weiting, thank you for an amazing day. Exhausting, but amazing. Also, today has taught me that it takes time and painful experiences to find people you can trust. However, there will always be trustworthy people who are genuinely interested in your well-being. Look out for them, they're right there.
To the two of you, i want you to know that I am insanely jealous of you guys but at the same time, i feel the most immense happiness because what you guys must be feeling is one of the best things you'll ever feel, ever. I wish you the best of luck and the best of times and that this will last because you're both such amazing people and even though i don't know either of you as well as i'd like to, to me, you seem to understand each other on a level I don't think anyone else will. And its really fucking amazing you know? like OMG WTF THIS IS AMAZING kind of amazing, that you two ended up together. ARRRGGHHH NKLVYHSLGFNEACOIHVNKSDBVFLIHGFLENFVKZD;V I can't get over it, its just so like... MY MIND IS STILL BLOWN. UNTIL NOW. Also, SOOOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE okay i'm done.
my bucket list:
1. lie in a bed of flowers like rihanna did in her only girl video
2. own every version of guitar hero/band hero available
3. make everyone i know a t shirt
4. watch dirty dancing 20 times
5. find someone who understands what i mean by "come here loverboy" without giving me the :/ face
today was FUN. and i almost didn't go.
here it is in bite sized potions.
-poolside fun is always good. even the drizzle couldn't get us down
-tim is a raving maniac. but he's great entertainment
-THE GIRLS' ROOM! relle wt marie debbie cass and i etc in the shower and drying ourselves off from swimming/putting makeup on. wt washed my hair :D it was a salon experience. we then vowed to all get together again and make our own sleepover, no boys allowed. OMGOMGOMG RIGHT
-i jumped into the pool after deluding myself that i could dry myself off with a hairdryer. (actually did that)
-molton brown toiletries. the shampoo and conditioner has left my hair shiny and soft and nice even as i am typing this.
-non-chlorine pool. INFINITY SUMMORE LOR.
-marylyn and kat came to visit!
-badass awesome indie hotel suite. pool with a great view. NAUMI HOTEL, 41 SEAH ST GO ITS FUN
THE STUPID AND FUCKED UP
-the spooning. attached people spooning with people who aren't their girlfriends/boyfriends.
-the giant mess of people.
-being one of like 3 sober people when everyone else is red and high and sleeping/pretending to sleep but actually just spooning.
SIDE NOTE: i think spooning should be reserved for individuals who want to express sincere affection, not those who want to look trashy and party-ish for the sake of the situation. honestly, i love you all but i don't approve of what you're doing.
-fact that naz was absent
-i can't say this without looking like a jealous bitch, which i am not, no matter what certain people may choose to believe. trophy girls. its so sick. like a creepy old man bringing hot models to society events. i would hate to be a guy. you have to go through this kind of stupid ass phase of fast cars and fuckable women. mid life crises dont look good on teenagers.
-talking to drunk people
it kinda looked like an orgy. i dont think i like orgies very much. and i hate alcohol. it tastes like shit.
Three sisters is totally depressing. But you know what? Life isn't going to be like that. Going for deb lin's (awesome) party made me miss those times when every birthday was celebrated, and always with amazing company and great food where we always laughed until it hurt. And i can't help it, now that we're all in different JCs and polys and stuff, it seems more and more difficult to bring back those times where the noise level was super loud and we all got so retarded. Its not that we're drifting, but the tension's getting higher and there's just less in common.
And I had a thought that my social life is getting well, dull. I mean, everything is drama this, drama that. But I'm thinking this isn't necessarily a bad thing. Perhaps the lull is supposed to be good for me, you know? And I know that this isn't permanent.
The pizza place where deb had her birthday had this awesome concept; they put paper on the tables as tablecloths and they had bottles of crayons there so we could draw on the tables while we waited for the food. Which was really good!
WHYY AM I SO MELLOWWWWWWW. Ugh. I feel like a bag of magical jelly suspension.